I have been doing research for the tumors thinking that this Dr would have me take a pill and all this would just go away. When he said " I think we are looking at surgery" I said " not a hysterectomy " and he said Yes. I thought dang I've got to get home and do alot more researching to avoid this. I thought the only reason they would need to do that was if I had cancer and yet I still don't know for sure about that one, I guess I will know tue. He wants me to see if he can give me a pill to try and shrink it before surgery be easier for recovery( larger than a football now ).
When I came back out to the desk to set up other appointments I was joking with the lady there. Billy was waiting for me and I was talking to him on the way out and handed him the keys, the moment I closed the truck door I broke down crying, and was telling him what the deal was. Later on the way home I was okay with it and he said " I am proud of my girl, you held it together till you got in the truck." LOL. I'm not down with PDE ( public display of emotions ) we have been together 8 years and he can count on one hand and have fingers left over, how many times he has seen me cry.
Yesterday I hurt so badly that I knew that I would do what ever was needed to end this pain. Now I have to get on to weight loss in a fast way, because of surgery, I've lost weight so many times so I know that's not a problem once it is in my head, and well I think I am there now.
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