Wednesday, March 31, 2010

It is done

I have finally had my hysterectomy Monday. My doctor used the da Vinci robotic arm, which is better on recovery, I don't know why all doctors aren't trained to use it. I have had the best doctor and everyone that has worked on me, they were all so nice, it makes a big difference when you have people that want to help than just put in hours. It took over 7 hours and my doctor had to chop it in pieces to get everything out and I am so thankful that he took the time to do so instead of just opening me up and getting it out the other way which would be worse. After all the months and shots to have the da Vinci and to wake up and see that we had to do it the other way would have been bad for me.  When I came to I was very shocked that I had the pain that I felt in my  arms, it hurt more that anything. Found out it was because of the gas, I'm better today. I can tell a difference in my walking already, I should have done this years ago.

Friday, March 5, 2010

March 5

Today was a beautiful day, the sun was shinning and it got up in the 50's. You have got to love weather like that after a long cold spell.
I have been creating tonight, now I want to get to a scrapbook store, as if I have a shortage of supplies here. I wonder if I am the only one that will purchase something I think is so pretty just to get it home and worry about messing it up and not doing anything with it, I even do that with paper, we're talkin' paper, it's not going to break me if I have to purchase another sheet. Now that I have gotten my slice I am better about it.

Thursday, March 4, 2010

March 4

Today I was all set in my mind for surgery. I did the prep last night, got up at 3 went to the hospital, they gave me 2 IV's a shot in my ab for thinning blood, took blood which hurt the most because she couldn't find a vein. Then they wheeled me into OR and was getting me ready when everyone was watching my heart monitor and then I heard my doctor say " we may not be able to do this today " . They had someone else come in and look it over and that's when my doctor told me that I would have to see a heart doctor and find out what the next move is. I think the doc will take one look at me and say lose some weight.
I had the hard part behind me, now I get to do it all over again. I guess I should not complain it could always be worse, I mean, I don't know what the doc will tell me Monday, I hope " everything's fine, you just have a skipping heart beat".
I have so many plans in the works and I have kinda put them on hold until recovery. I guess that is why I was so depressed when I came home. Now that I have had time to think about it things really do happen for a reason, all in God's time. I don't know why this happen today but He does. As for the plans, I am starting tonight and going ahead and when I have this surgery I will simply put everything on a slight hold or do what I can. I think I am afraid that I will be down for 5 to 6 weeks, that is what most say. I keep thinking everyone is different and it is what it is.
On a positive note, I now know what to expect when I go in next time and isn't that where fear comes from, the not knowing.

I am a big Tim Holtz fan and I posted something of his a few days ago which looking back is so true.
" the mind determines which is possible. The heart surpasses it"
I guess today my heart said " we are not doing this today"